Hey Everyone,
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a happy New Year! I'm sorry about the lack of updates lately, but in all honesty there isn't much to tell. Everyone always says waiting is the hardest part, and they're absolutely right. But what they don't tell you is the waiting you have to do before you even get on "the list." I had no idea the evaluation process would talk this long. My cardiologist and a bunch of other surgeons, gastroenterologist, and the transplant team have been in meetings discussing my case. I hope they come up with some answers soon! In the mean time I'll just have to try to be more patient (yes. . .patience Iago (see Aladdin)).
If I remember correctly from my last post, I was waiting to have a consultation with a Cardiothoracic surgeon. I met with him in early December, and he is going to be working with my transplant Cardiologist to develop a plan. My hopes are high, he was educated at Georgetown and did his residency and fellowship at John's Hopkins. That's gotta be good! Right? Next I have to see a gastroenterologist to determine if I need a heart and liver transplant to just a heart transplant. I'm obviously hoping it's only the latter. So other than that there isn't much to tell. All I can do is keep waiting, remain positive, and keep living life!
When faced with an uncertain future one tends to do A LOT of thinking. I tend to contemplate what I should have done differently, what I wish I could go back and change. I know it's useless dwelling on the past. What's done is done. Which is why I've always loved the beginning of a new year, it's like a rebirth, a new beginning, a chance to start doing things differently. My advice to you? Live each day to the fullest, life is so precious and can change in a heart beat. Forgive, forgive, forgive. Is something really worth losing the love and friendship of someone forever? Don't hold grudges. Give everyone a second chance, they might surprise you! Do NOT judge (easier said then done) but try putting yourself in that persons situation/shoes instead. Embrace the mistakes you've made (wow, I really need to take my own advice, lol), They are what made you who you are today. And lastly love each other as our wonderful Savior loves us, there is no greater gift.
As always, thanks for reading! 'Till next time.
~Heidi~
